Gay and married I knew I had homosexual desires in my early teens but I was brainwashed by social preferences and scared to submit to them even though I had a few guys try to seduce me. I wanted to be, and made all attempts to appear macho to the public and I tried to and succeeded in being popular with several girls and wound up married to one that I thought was a prized perfect sex partner and I felt macho thinking guys admired me for having the girl that several seemed to lust after.
I wasn’t even jealous when guys came on to her especially cute ones that I liked having around. And as our sex became routine and burned out I would visualize how the guys I admired would look while doing sex and so when these two guys that were constantly in our midst and one especially that kept on bragging about how sexy she looked to him helped brain wash me into wondering how she would enjoy sex with this hot stud. I actually visualized his body in motion during our sex to satisfy my discreet gay lusts. Now the one that seemed to only be a trusting friend actually never acted like he desired to sex her but only teased her to make her feel like a lady and actually occasional flirted with me and finally one night while riding behind him on his motorcycle and feeling the heat of his buns against my groins.
I let my hands that were around his waist drop down on his groins pretending it was accidental and found his hard on that got the whole new sex ball rolling. He quickly pulled the bike off the road into a side road and leaned back into me and run his hand back to fondle me. We got the bike on its stand and we were greedily kissing and fondling and breathing hard and on this first sexual experience we only masturbated each other to a climax. He admitted that he had wanted me for a long time and I told him how lonely I had been for a guy. He also told me that the other boy had played around with him but never kissed him and that he had did all the sucking unto him and l... อ่านทั้งเรื่อง
